House Keeping

Somebody told my maid to not come this weekend and so my house had to start the week out a bit messy (He He). I am just needing a "Wine Outlet" so my apologies up front. Why is it that I feel like my house is always destroyed, yet I feel like I am picking up most of the time, yet, I can never get motivated to do house work. I am in a better mood when my house is somewhat cleaned. Maybe deep down I want to be grumpy so I don't want to clean because it might make me feel better? I also think, why clean it, when it will look like this again in 10 minutes? I am realizing how dirty and unorganized my house is and am overwhelmed with what it would take to get it to a better place. I want to get it to an organized place because summer is around the corner, and when my kids are all home, I love to have some freedom, and with trips and playing house work definitely is the last thing that gets done. But maybe somewhere I can get prepared and get some good habits going before it gets here. I am always reading "How to get organized" articles and "Ways to keep a clean house" articles but none of them have given me the motivation I need.